My whole hyperventilation story
My whole hyperventilation story. I am almost there and maybe someone can benefit from it. I have always been a very committed person and good at what I did. Moreover, clearly an ADHD, that I was proud of… “Because I did twice as much as other people in the same time.” From young adulthood to my 40th in external services. And I worked in the hightech IT field. The last 15 years I had a year mileage of 100,000 km.
Very short nights were the result
But I also had more than enough time to be active as a parent at school. And to sit in a committee of the municipality. When the sports hall in our village was finished, I setup a successful badminton club. And managed the club for years. Very short nights were the result. But that did not matter. “Most people die in bed, so you have to spend as little time as possible there”…
I was literally burned out physically
During holidays I was often sick in bed for a few days. But then again on the surfboard or under the hang glider. Shortly after my 40th it was suddenly over. I developed huge allergies and I was ‘walking and talking to the animals’. I was literally burned out physically. So I tried foot baths to be able to sleep. It looks funny now but quiet walking for me, was at least 6 km in the hour. And i was talking to the animals… It was crazy. During the foot baths I had my laptop on my lap and some professional literature next to me. It and did not help of course…
Everything done fanatically
But after a few months I went back to work. But i was looking for a solution. Meditation, massage courses, spiritual course “how do I earth myself?” I can go on for a while but you understand the pattern. Of course I did everything just as fanatically. But still, I learned a few thing. I experienced that I was never busy with work, but “I was my work”. I was completely submerged in it. But finally I learned to deal with it a bit better. However, I regularly fell back into my pitfalls. I JUST LOVE STRESS. And my work has always been nice. Problems were only challenges!
The pitfalls remained
I think the picture is clear. The last 13 active working years I had an indoor function. This gave me some rest. But the pitfalls remained. And the health and energy levels were not great anymore. Around my 60th I decided to stop working. Because working less was not a viable option for me. I sold the house and now we live in Turkey. Good climate, beautiful country and it was financially feasible to live there for a few years without income.
I assumed this would bypass the pitfalls. And I spent a few more enjoyable years. But this was only partly true. Because you also take yourself with you. In the last year I had some bad luck. Dislocated my shoulder twice. backwards and once forwards. So I because very immobile. And I had a lot of pain and had to go under narcosis.
Woke up afraid one morning
I woke up afraid one morning, but I had no idea why. Eventually I developed many of the symptoms that you can find on this site. I had an ECG, scans of heart and all organs, several blood tests. I was connected to a heart monitor for 24 hours. The only thing the medics found was too many red blood cells and a urinary tract inflammation.
Rationality and emotions were far apart
I could rationally explain most things. But my emotions and fears were there too. And they were not nice. Rationality and emotions were far apart. In one of the searches on the web I discovered “the HyperVen therapy” I finally found recognition. Despite the fact that I did not feel that all my symptoms were explained, I started with HyperVen.
I am not completely there yet but I feel happy again. Some things that have really since HyperVen therapy:
- My heart rate went from 80 to 60 at rest and no more heart pounding.
- No more pressure in my head and whizzing in my ears.
- My intestines are calmer than they have been in many years.
- My breathing has calmed and in rest I have an abdominal breathing.
I use HyperVen to get grip
I now use HyperVen once a day. Because when I stopped in consultation, I experienced a huge dip. I use HyperVen to get grip during the day. Moreover, I feel a kind of confirmation that things are going well. For me it is close to meditation. So sometimes it feels necessary to start again.
One of the things that are not really going well is physical effort. It is now hot here and the roads are not flat like in Holland. When I am walking and I have to go up a steep slope, I am kind of panicking. My breathing is thoracic and is not sufficient. But I have my hopes that this too will once be better again.
